Thoughts in the Dark of the Night.

The last few nights it has taken me a couple of hours to fall asleep. In the past this would have been an unpleasant experience, a time of frustration. That frustration would have been somewhat reasonable in the past because with the deadlines of work an hour to get to sleep is an hour less of sleep. An hour less of sleep means a noticeable increase in the unpleasant nature of the following day. But these last few nights I have just lain in a ridiculously comfortable bed, safe, secure, with no rush to do anything and just let the thoughts come and go. Here are some of them.

Why is the word "Word" pronounced werd, while what you would expect to be the pronunciation of the word "Word" is how you pronounce the word "Ward"? And this isn't a regional dialect issue, this wackiness seems essentially universal in the english language. The problem with these sort of thoughts is that you end up reading these sorts of web pages: www.fortunecity.com/victorian/vangogh/555/Spell/trublspl1.html


Does it matter whether you can remember something or not? Let's say you get so drunk that you black out and can't remember what happened. If you had a really good time that night, does it matter that you can't remember it? Is the good time simply a good time regardless of anything else? If it isn't, and that the memory of an action validates it, then this means that once you are dead all of your life means nothing, or as you get older, none of the experiences that you forget have any validity. So, I uess things are valid only for what they are. An experience is only valid as an experience and a memory is only valid as a memory. I often wake up from a good night sleep somehow aware that I have just had a very pleasant experience without any memory of what that pleasant experience might be.

Am I the same person that I was twenty years ago? How would I be able to tell?